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Activity (8) - gym was fire and out and about a lil bit too

Food (3) - i made my dearest breakfast in bed (lentil veggie soup + bagel w two different spreads and kombucha) but i aint shit till like 1pm lol T_T

Mental (7.2) - some bumps in thoughts and hegel is starting to mess with my head a little bit. a tad too existential for me right now so i think im gonna put bro down for a while

Feeling (8) - great! if i count what happened at the very end of the night like a strong 3 but it happens and i wanna be pma so just gonna call it as it was c:

Social (8.2) - talked to hls for a long time, was w gf all morning, talked w/ ex stepdad, played games w/ phi and myu

Hobbies (2) - i fucked up my build in d4 i am sad.

Overall (9) - honestly although in my categories i missed the mark - i feel like the people i care about were winning today and having a lot of fun and thats important to me (mini me, my mom, court, gf, hls(10 game ws for bro)) which just kinda made it really nice to see people bein happy

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zzz sleep soon?

it’s really really late and i don’t have the energy to do all the categories properly so ill do ratings and then ramble and throw in some pics and sotd and call it there

this morning was HARD i was so so tired from staying up so late watching her play games (which was totally worth it) we got to have solid yap and extensive story time which i loved she left to go hangout with friends which i was actually kind of excited for her to do that. (obviously i dont want her to leave but like for HER type shi) i feel like she hasn’t gotten the opportunity to HOLD ON im sitting outside writing in my phone and there’s a street cat fight but they’re so cute T_T. i digress very excited for her to have the opportunity to just go out and be with her gals and just have a good time ya know! i get a little worried that im like helicoptery or just being invasive. but yeah she left and for the first two or three hours i was coding and then i bricked my necromancer in d4 by attempting a huge build switch up and i lowkey completely fucked it. i was really enjoying the current setup i had going so it was kinda devastating. i definitely was upset/sad for an hour or two. also spent way too long otp with ex step dad about living situation and this guy has never ragebaited so hard. i dont really care to talk about it here because i got to debrief with friends on it but man that guy just blows sometimes.

hours later i get food go gym swim sauna fry my hair make dinner which was pretty yummy honey oats greek yogurt mixed berries and honey drizzled over it chefs kiss simple but so effective as a post gym meal. hours go by i play some games read a good bit and then no sleep from yesterday caught up with me. definitely attempting to be a good partner and make sure they all make it back home safe but also i had to go check on my little sister at my moms house bc shes home alone and had friends over. they were all chillers only one new face (none of them even dared to look at me i guess bc they were drinking or smoking type shit and thought i’d be pressed?? idek. regardless today was really good too except for bricking my necromancer that shit made me sad af

getting a little bit more outside time on the porch before i head inside to wash my face and read before bed. i feel like im slowly getting better at managing and articulating myself to myself. less messy internally still constant going conscious thought but structured in a good sense. am sleepy and half assedly journaling so i know the quality won’t be the best but it is what it is ya know.

this posts chronology is pretty fucked i think i saw someone that looked like E drive down our street before i went outside in a black kia soul just like back in the day and it made me super overwhelmed not in like a oh i cant handle myself or im freaking out way but more like i can handle this but what the fuck why granted i waited and waited and they came back down the street and i dont THINK it was her but its still gonna fuck with me ya know. so it is what it is day quality doesnt change still a banger type beat just bad moment at the eod for whatever unlucky reason